You are never beyond the reach of God. His love and care are always there for you to be experienced. All you need to do is turn to Him. His arms are always open, His welcome is always prepared.
We maybe in two minds about turning our back on God and wanting our independence, but remember if we do God will always welcome us back with open arms, no questions asked. In fact He’d throw us a party, invite us to a feast and make us the guest of honour.